Gotta learn to let go sometimes

Well Friday the 12th torn me in two. Cant go in to much detail. but i never excepted that to happen. I thought it would all be worked out without it having to come to this, i didnt chose this. all i can say is good luck to you all. I enjoyed being with yall and being yalls captain. I guess the talk about me becoming BC - well talk always isnt true so oh well. there wasnt many people like me in there with the desiring passion for it but i guess if you dont want them in there keep going the way you are going. I dont know why ive cried over this program, but ive wasted so many tears on it and you know what - thats come to a stop. i have better things to cry over then that. I loved that program and you ripped my dreams from me, but you know what there are bigger and better things for me out there now, and as for you well good luck, this isnt over. Yall have fun running in circles - im out of the program and out of the school shortly, you wont have to worry about me. you havent won, all my stuff in a black bag sitting by the door ready to get back to you tomorrow morning. you know God gave me this mountain to climb it has involved a lot of different stuff. homeschooling to public school to moving to a strange place to meeting a wonderful guy to making new friends and now back to homeschooling. He's given me the strength to make it this far, I know He is with me and is going to help me through this even if I do feel broken in two. He had me move here to FL for a reason and theres a reason He doesn't want me in JROTC, gotta keep my heart up and let Him lead. And i thank Him for the friends and family He has given me to help me through this. And i know Hes with me all the way. This is just a mountain Im having to climb - this struggle has knocked me down but you know what I got right back up and Im still going strong and Im pushing on and Im keeping my head held high. Im going to get through this. Im staying strong and Im not going to worry about a thing and leave it in His control. It hurts but the only way for the hurt to stop is to let go. so this is my goodbye. Time to let go and move on