Future

No one knows what the future holds. In the past 7 months God has definitely showed that to me. I thought I had it all figured out but I don't. I wasn't living 110% in the word like I should have been, however in the last 2 months I have decided that needed to change. Today I was reading in Proverbs. "Guidance For The Young" 

Proverbs 3:5-6 
'Trust in the LORD with all of your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.'

Within the past couple months I have struggled with multiple areas in my life and I have been trying to get back on path on my own. Reading these verses today reminded me as long as I trust God in any and every aspect of my life He will guide my foot steps on to the path He as set for me. 

Proverbs 3:23-26
'Then you will walk safely in your way,
And your foot will not stumble.
When you lie down, you will not be afraid;
Yes, you will lie down and your sleep will be sweet.
Do not be afraid of sudden terror,
Nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes;
For the LORD will be your confidence, 
And will keep your foot from being caught.'

From today forward 110% of what I do will be for the Lord. I do not understand His plan for my life. I do not understand why He lead me to Charleston Southern University and why I got so excited to attend the school when I knew nothing about it. But I am filled with over excitement to attend this school. But I will trust in Him in all my ways and I will acknowledge Him in everything, for I know I will not stray away from His plan in doing this. He is my rock and my shelter. I will trust Him in my life and I give Him everything. I give Him my life, my school, my friends, my family, my money, my relationship. He will be the center of everything I do 110% from now on. I can not wait to see where He takes me in life and I am ready for anything. I know I have Him on my side. I surrender all to Him, 110%

We Are The Body

I spoke Sunday night at my church. When you get a chance listen to it. It may just change your life.

 http://www.amazingly-graced.com/sermons/Kim%20Aspenson%20-%20If%20We%20Are%20The%20Body%20(06-02-2013).mp3

Pain.Confusion.Hurt

Trusted. Believed. Dreamed. Hoped. All the things you no longer know if you have or not. Pain. Confusion. No Understanding. Hurt. Those. Those you know are present. Why? Because that is all you can feel. As if a black hole as sucked in your heart. It came out of no where, one split second and everything was gone. Theres a hole in a chest that use to be full. It started with one kiss that changed everything and made you fall. It ended with one message that came out of the blue. You thought you would be able to see it coming if it was to come. You never thought it would, at least not this soon. Time is suppose to heal the wounded but right now time is the enemy. Time. Time is making things harder because it is making thoughts run laps around your brain. When will I become good enough? When will I become more then a disappointment? When will the pain heal? How much longer? Why me? Why is it always me that gets hurt? You want to become numb again but your unsure how. How much longer with the enemy? Everyone says they are their for you but no one truly understands. They never will because they don't feel they pain you feel. "Stay strong" is all you here and all you try to be but you are so ready to give up and cave in.

Helping Hand

So recently I have been working at our Brandon location. Since working there I have came in communication with a Deaf guy, Jody. The first time he walked in he I didn't know he was Deaf until he started making loud noises to get my attention. When I started to sign to him his face lit up and we began to have a conversation. He has recently told me he has no money or food so Every day he has been in and I have bought him some yogurt. Every time he tells me "God Bless You" or "God Loves You" or "I love you" and "Thank You" I knew I wasn't going to be in today so I left an envelope with money in it for my coworker to allow him to get yogurt. She texted me told me he was so excited to see that envelope from me with some money to get him yogurt with. This fills my heart with joy to know I can help someone! My coworker and I are planning on going to get him so food for him to have. 

Sealed

"Sealed"

One step forward three steps back 

Wondering what will become of this anxiety attack

Bestowed a trust like none other 

Only to be proven one is like another 

Up went a wall 

With hopes not to fall

Wore the heart on a sleeve 

For you to just leave

Gave up without a fight 

Staying strong with all my might

Knowing in time everything will be fine

Just waiting for a sign 

A slow pace will heal the broken 

From all this comes a token 

With hopes one day it will be revealed 

Until then a heart stays sealed. 

- Kimberly E. Aspedon 

Mirror

"Mirror" 

Peering into the mirror 
What is that reflection?
Brighten the window so the picture is clearer 
Staring at an image with questions 

The soul seen through the eyes 
Confusion racing the mind 
Its never easy when it comes to goodbyes
Just need time to unwind 

Picking up the fragments  
Praying glue can hold them together 
Knowing they will forever have an indent 
Hoping soon I will become stronger. 

-Kimberly Elizabeth Aspedon 

Pain

Pain is that felt in the heart
Pain is that taste of tart
Pain is for the weak
Pain is for a freak

Is it hard for one to take a hint? Trying to be as nice as possible. Wondering what more I'll have to take before this pain will end. Trying to find a way to escape. Trying to severe ties and leave them un-bandaged. Held on for something for so long when there was nothing to hold on. Alone and cold in the lonely world, I look around and wonder: "will things ever get better?" On my knees praying that God will heal the wounded and allow happiness to overfill the sadden.

Comfort is for the rested
Comfort is for the nested
Comfort is that sense of peace
Comfort is that pain cease

Must be hard to take that hint repeatedly offered. Done with trying. No longer wondering if it will end, cause knowing you there is no end. Moving forward and going to forget. Revenge is best served cold. I will no longer allow your grip to hold me down. You will not watch any suffering come from this direction. God heals the wounded, all that is needed is a little bit of patience. I will wait for the healing, just away from you.

-Kimberly Elizabeth Aspedon