Pain.Confusion.Hurt

Trusted. Believed. Dreamed. Hoped. All the things you no longer know if you have or not. Pain. Confusion. No Understanding. Hurt. Those. Those you know are present. Why? Because that is all you can feel. As if a black hole as sucked in your heart. It came out of no where, one split second and everything was gone. Theres a hole in a chest that use to be full. It started with one kiss that changed everything and made you fall. It ended with one message that came out of the blue. You thought you would be able to see it coming if it was to come. You never thought it would, at least not this soon. Time is suppose to heal the wounded but right now time is the enemy. Time. Time is making things harder because it is making thoughts run laps around your brain. When will I become good enough? When will I become more then a disappointment? When will the pain heal? How much longer? Why me? Why is it always me that gets hurt? You want to become numb again but your unsure how. How much longer with the enemy? Everyone says they are their for you but no one truly understands. They never will because they don't feel they pain you feel. "Stay strong" is all you here and all you try to be but you are so ready to give up and cave in.