Missing

I think its getting harder and harder everyday to go without seeing the one that means more then the world to me. 10 minutes without talking feels like 10 hours the 6 to 7 days with out seeing him feels like 6 to 7 years. :( and when I do see him for 9 hours one day a week it only feels like 5 minutes :( I just wish I was 22.7 miles closer to him then I could see him 5 school days and on weekends, I could talk to him more and be in his arms and have a sweet kiss from him. He could hold me and let me cry instead of trying to comfort me over the phone. :( I don't think him or anyone else understands how badly I miss him and how I would give the right side of my body to be with him. I admit it, I for one am jealous of all the couples out there that get to see that special someone everyday. Those people should really cherish it instead of take it for granted because some people don't get to see that love one everyday. Not only me but think of all the military people that have their spouse or their mom or their dad or someone they love dearly. They for one have to worry everyday "Am I ever going to be able to hold them again" "Are they gonna come home alive" or "Am I going to get that knock on the door and get told the words I swore I would never hear" You NEVER know what could happen but those of you who have that loved one that means the world to you and you can see them everyday, let them know you love them and hold them and hug them, because if you take them for granted sooner or later they are going to be gone. So every time I see Ryan I CHERISH that and until the day I can be with him 24/7 by his side I will hold my head high and know everything will be okay. To all you military families, I know you pain of wondering those questions, yea I miss Ryan every second of everyday but my Uncle was just re-deployed overseas and I wonder everyday - "Will I get to see him again" "Am I going to get that horrid email or phone call" but I will trust in God to keep my Uncle safe. 


Dear God, 
Thank you for another day Oh Lord. You are a God of many wonders and I praise You, Right now Lord I want to pray for all the men and women overseas fighting in the war. I pray that you keep them in Your hands and keep them safe under Your wing. Not only them but keep us families that have that loved one fighting in this deadly war. Give us the courage and the hope to keep going and know all is well in your eyes and everything will be taken care of. Also Lord give comfort to those families that have already lost love ones, let them know You are here to provide support and care and comfort to them. Thank you Lord Jesus for everything you have done. 
In Your Name I pray, Amen 


Well Im off to work on some school and other stuff while Ryan is SAT testing.