Sometime in Life.

Sometimes in life you gonna be thrown many different things. Curve balls, Fast balls, and then some are ones you cant dodge so you get hit in the gut with them. Thats where I am right now, I feel like if been hit in the gut with a fast ball. And it hurts ='/ Ryans grandfather passed away yesterday. When I got the text I litterally was about to drop my phine because I was shaking so bad. I was up til 11 talking on and off to Ryan before he tried to go to sleep. I on the other hand could barely sleep going in and out all night because I wanted to be up if he texted me or if he called needing someone, and I havent been able to eat yet, just dont have an appetite for food. He says he's fine but I know better, I know hes trying to be strong for his parents but I know him and I know he's hurting on the inside. Because I know I am, I only met grandpa clinton like 4 times. But I cant explain it, I feel like I lost someone I was close to. Ryan and I have been together for over a year and his family feels like family to me like I hope mine does to him. So I dont know if I feel hurt because I lost a family member or if I hurt because Ryan hurts, or I hurt because I cant help, or maybe all three ='/ I dont know. But I know Ive been crying on and off for the past almost 12 hours. Sat in the shower for an hour and a half crying and then called my grandma and cried more. I dont want to find out how I will be when one of my grandparents die. Or anyone in my family. But I know Ryan will be there for me like I am here for him right now. Im trying so hard to be strong for him but its hard :( I keep praying for strength. Please pray for us in this time of need. I may not blog for a couple days but bare with me plase. RIP Grandpa Clinton

Please Vote For Dani!

Good morning my Awesome friends. I need a really big favor from all of you that dont already know about this, Please go to this link and register (you only have to reg. once) and vote for Dani to sing the National Anthem @ the Iowa state fair. She is the granddaughter of a friend of mine and needs your votes. Remember her name is DANI! Thank you! you can vote up to five time each day until aug 2nd. so please help us get her there. she is in closing running to this this. the first place girl has media coverage and Dani does not so please reg and vote five time everyday it will only take a min of your time.   

American Government Debate

So I had an American Government debate today in my online FLVS course and the focus questions was Should students be allowed to display the Confederate Flag in school, I remind you its a live debate so we go back and forth. Well someone on the opposing side (Negative) said that the confederate flag represents Slavery and I stop and butted in and said no it doesn't and we started going back and forth and he told me the KKK wore that falg so since I wear it Im an associate for the KKK.!! I mean really are people so rude and ignorant to say that.?!?! Attacking someone they dont even know and telling me Im KKK and telling me I shoudl die.? WWOOWW is all I have to say.  Below I copied and pasted a question I had to answer at the end of the debate. My view.




7. A paragraph explaining your personal views on whether the Confederate Flag should be allowed in school.                          I personally believe that either its the Confederate Flag or Great Britain Flag I don't think it should matter. The Confederate Flag is a representation of the south, it does not represent slavery or KKK. In side and out side of school we have the freedom of expression and what is the school system showing us if they don't give us that right in school. They are showing us no matter what the Constitution says we don't really have right because they are going to limit our right to freedom of expression. People who believe it represents slavery and the KKK and want to tell me that since I wear it I'm an associate of the KKK needs to read up and see that the flag does not represent what they say it does. Any and everything can offend someone, are they going to band all of it in the schools? If you band one thing band them all. We have the freedom to express our religion in school so why are they gonna band us from expressing our culture views? If someone comes from India to America and go to a public school they arent going to band them from their cultural views, wearings or anything else in school, so why the Confederate Flag. This is my personal view.   




Now whats YOUR view!!?? Theres no hard feelings for whatever your view is and if you wish to comment feel free but keep it clean and considerate. Thanks =) Just thought I would share my experience in my first live debate.! 

College

So Ive been debating this topic for a while now. Idk if I want to or not, I know everyone expects me to and I dont wanna dissapoint anyone. But I think I made my choice and I will go. And Ive decided and UCF, an off branch called Rosen College. Offers what I want and looks really nice and its a little over an hour from parents and Ryan. But I have a HUGE question, I want to finish college before 4 years, Im doing dule enrollment and I plan on doing classes in the summer after I apply so if I do this would I finsih before four years like I plan.? If anyone can help please let me know.! Please Please Please let me know. I plan on doing Event Mangement. To eventually become a wedding planner. Well anyways back to researching. Hope everyone has a nice day!!! 

Lost, Confused, A little Damaged

The title of this blog is also part of a song by KJ-52 called Broken People and those words; Lost and Confused is exactly how I feel right now maybe even a little "damage".. Well the good thing is my school credit thing got fixed and Im back on track (ahead) like Im suppose to be. And that makes me feel better, in a sense.. But now I don't know anymore.. I don't know what to do, think, say or act because every time I do something say something or even think something I screw something else up. Im tired of being a screw up. Life is coming upon me so fast, I mean this year Im going to be a junior.. Then senior year and then out in to the real world... I have a lot of choices to make and I just wish there was someone there to help me making them. I wish I could see in to the future and see the ways things might be so I know what the right choice is. Is there a right choice.? All of a sudden everything became a blur, I had it all almost figured out but now it all seems like a blur. Do I take this path or this one.? I feel like Im on a broken road and it feels like I have no one to help me chose which way I should I go. What if I chose one way and then later regret it.? I don't wanna look back and say to myself "I should have chosen the other path" Do I go to college and put other plans on hold and be gone for 4 years.? Or do I go ahead do the one thing I know for SURE I want and stay.? Or what.? Why does it seem that everything is so hard.? I know what I want so why am I making it difficult.? The plans you shared with me sound more then amazing but why am I making it so difficult.? Why do I all of a sudden feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.? So many questions but theres no answers. I wish I had a North Star pointing me in the right direction or a sign from God showing me that this choice will be better. But I know God has His own timing in showing us what He sees for us. So I guess all I can do is pray. Wish I really knew what to do. Im tired of everyone else telling me what to do, I wanna do what I want to not what they see for me. Im sick of feeling like a failure because everyone has their own expectations for me and I don't want to desiappoint anyone but I can't please everyone, dont they know that.? I dont think anyone understands what they put me through, being the first child and the first one to go to college(one expectation), I just dont know anymore and I wish I did... I dont wanna disappoint anyone but I wanna do me.... Imma shoot off here for now, dont forget about the new "All you page". Hope everyone has an amazing day!   

Alittle Nervous

So I have an appointment tomorrow at my school to hopefully get my credits fixed, but I have this feeling that its not going to work. =/ I dont know what Im going to do if its not. I feel like giving up, Ive put  up with so much with school and Ive put in so much effort and hard work for it all to just go down the drain and then they expect me to redo all that hard work and make up those assignments.?!? I dont think its fair, Ryan told me if it doesnt get fix then he'll help me and make up those credit with me. I told him I dont see the point and he says to get your diploma. I see where he is coming from but I mean really, why should I put in more time and hard work (when its killing me already) into something they screwed up.? Im so scared that its not going to get fix because if it doesnt Im going to get discouraged and i would be able to graduate and/or get a GED with out redoing all those classes and its not fair. I dont know what to do anymore... So instead of being "alittle nervous" Im shaking in my bones nervous... It seems like I work so hard to have nothing pay off, not just in school either other things as well. Who am I kidding, Im not good for anything... =/ Well Im going to get off here, Ill let you all know how tomorrow goes! Peace everyone.   

Cant get worse

=/ So upset right now nothing seems to be going right =( school is the worset thing ever, I took my necklace back to Jared and this time they wouldnt fix it! I mean really last time they fixed it for free now no they cant.? =/ Almost got in to a wreck or two today =/ cant concentrate on anything. I work so hard and it seems like everything is crashing down. I need some time away from everything but I dont get that. I ask for one thing one time and I cant have it or I have to make all these deals and convince them to let me. Why cant I just have it once.?? I work harder then anything. All I wanna do right now is cry. Nothing seems right, I dont think anything can get any worse. Just gonna suck it up like always =( Goodnight everyone.! 

Back =)

So I headed out around 8:30ish this morning and got rid of my siblings around 1! =) Now Im back at the house and I think its nap time! Probably gonna eat something watch some deadly catch with mom and then MAYBE work on school until I decide to finally pass out and sleep! Haha. It was a nice drive, about 8/9 hours altogether but its EXHAUSTING.!!! So theres still no emails to help with with the new page yet, if I don't get any by the month end of the month then Ill probably delete the page and try something new later. =) I have some pretty great friends though! A friend of mine put in a really good word for me at his job and they called me while I was driving and when I listened to the voicemail they said the manager wants to talk with me and so forth BUT the thing that sucks is I don't live in SC anymore and I think thats where they job offer is BUT it still means a lot to me that a friend cares that much and put in a really good word for me without my knowledge.. hhhmmmm.. we shall see, Ill probably call them back AFTER I talk with my friend =) Well Imma go sooo Peace =) 

Its almost 12am!

Its almost 12 am and my mom, dad, sister, and brother are playing the Wii! I think my parents might miss them.! Haha I wont! =) Its funny watching them play and have fun though! Times like this make me smile =) Families are hard to maintain and yea there is going to be yelling and fighting and crazy shangainze like that but then there are times when we are spending time as a family sitting here playing the Wii at 12 in the morning that your always gonna remember.! =) My family is definitely crazy though! I mean my parents want to RE-NAME our cats and call one "Marcus" and the other "Lattimore" after SC football team player! I swear, only them! Haha, well we watched Lincoln Lawyer and it was really good =) I liked it. I was gonna go take a shower tonight but I guess a water line broke and now one of the lots are flooded and the maintenance people are trying to get it fixed so Imma go to bed and get me a shower before we head out =) and HOPING momma will get me starbucks! haha =) Well I hope everyone has a great night, or morning if your already awake and kicking =) lol Peace for tonight, I got driving to do tomorrow. **Dont forget about the new page** 

No Emails

Well theres no emails today =( Hoping to get some soon cause I would like to start that page.! haha. I think it would be cool! Also, if you want to be put on an email list so you know when I posted on my blog or if you wanna stay in tune on ITSOURTIMETOSHINE 24/7 you can email me your email address or comment on here your email address and I can put you on a list on here so you get the latest blogs to your email =) I cant believe there were 44 page views so far! Its great =) Thank you all for reading =) well dinner was ggooodd! No it was GGRREEAATT =) We watched a movie called Cutting Edge and it was really good! Now about to start watching Lincoln Lawyer and talking to one of my best friends =) now I cant wait for her to have her baby! I get to spoil BOTH my best friends kids =) heheheehehe I cant wait =) My goddaughter is so gorgeous, Ryan tells me Im obsessed with her.! Lol, nah I just love showing off my Goddaughter! Ill do that with Baby Dallas too, when he gets here in October! Lol =) Anyways, Im getting off here cause gonna be driving about 4 hours half way to SC to hand my siblings to my grandparents and then 4 hours back haha =) Well, Goodnight everyone! (haha my family is crazy!) Night! =) 

"All You" Page

Okay everyone, I got the page set up called "All You" and its gonna be all you! You can email me questions (that I will answer! if possible), things you wanna share, or prayer request and it can be totally anonymous.! And then I'll post it here on this page =) So email me at poohbeargirl201@yahoo.com for YOUR post to be shared on ITSYOURTIMETOSHINE =) I hope to start getting your emails, If you do email me in the subject box put "All You" so I know its for the blog! =)

That Stinks!

So I was in the middle of playing mario carts on the wii with my mom, brother, and sister when MMMYYYYY Wii remote DIES! Guess Im stuck watching them now -_- haha oh well its still funny! And whats really freaky is my best friend and I were texting when she asked what I was doing and I told her making cookies and she is too.! But the freaky part is we BOTH are making MINI Chocolate Chip cookies! haha =) She's making cookies while my beautiful goddaughter is sleeping =) I was trying to add a "family member" on my Facebook and add Taylor as my goddaughter BUT Facebook doesn't have a "Goddaughter" option which like totally sucks! So what am I to put Taylor as now.? Hhhmm -__- well anyways, while they play the Wii Im cooking dinner and baking cookies and talking to some friends and right this sec Im blogging =) I went and spent the day with Ryan yesterday so thats why I didn't blog. But had a fun day till I got sick o_O Went and saw the new transformers movie, it was alright in my opinion I like the other two better. And we also played in the rain but it wasn't raining all that hard so I went and got the water hose and got him supper wet! LOL It was fun =) Made brownies too but I didn't eat any =( because I wasn't feeling good. But its okay =) Its the little things like that that makes the world go round =) Been talking to my cousin a lot =) Im glad I get to talk to her! I hope I get to see her when I go to SC for a few days, speaking of which Im meeting my grandparents half way to SC to hand over my siblings for three weeks.! Three weeks with no siblings what on earth shall I do.?!?! I KNOW! Imma party! =) haha nah, Im gonna enjoy it though =) I got like five days worth of school to get done between today and Wednesday so I can take a break Thursday and Friday and surprise my really good friend =D It should be good! Well Im going to finish dinner and my cookies so peace for now =) 

GoodNight

Well, after my dad got home I was done for school for the rest of the day so I haven't done school since 6 pm ahh four hours of no school, how in the world did I survive.?!?! Haha well Im deff not doing anymore school tonight. I hate metro like seriously.! Ugh Hoping to spend tomorrow with him and hopefully going to go to the movies, hhhmmm MAKE him watch Winnie the Pooh with me or or see Transformers.? hhhmmmm idk yet lol so yeah =) anyways sssuupppaaaa tired haha so Goodnight Loves =) 

Blah

Ugh this is great. =/ Havent been getting much sleep at all and last nights staying up way to late to do school is driving my body crazy. I just got done eating but I felt sick to my stomach the whole time I was eatting. And all my muscles hurt and heavy eyes and headache, BLAH. Guess thats what I get for staying up so late last night huh.? Hoping I can push through the rest of the day and finish this school! Im making progress =) and that makes me happy. Ive done 19 assignments today so far and still have a ways to go but its getting there =) Waiting on a DBA call but it ten mins past the time it was suppose to be, so idk whats going on... Hmm, oh well. hoping to finish soon so I can write two letters I need to write to my friends =) and get them in the mail tomorrow.! Im thinking of adding a new page as a "views page" where you can email me any type of question you want, any comments, any stories, or any prayer request that you would like to share! So if and when I get that up I will let you all know so you can start sending in the emails =) so I can post your views on there =) and it can be totally anonymous if you want it to be! Well since the teacher didnt call going to get back to my work =)  

Never Realized

I never realized how much my glasses help! Lol, I dont wear them as offten as I should and I dont think they are as strong as they need to be anymore but WWOOOWWW! These things actually work! Who would have thunk it! Haha =) Well I had my shower and Im drinking a sprite that has NO CAFFEINE, thats not exactly what I need right now I need some Caffeine.!! Im ready to conquer another day of school.! Ive already gotten about 10 assignments done this morning and a whole lot more to go! Oh and I HATE METRO PCS!!! I have called Ryan (boyfriend) 12 times left two voicemails and he didnt get a single call or voicemail! Ugh! I hate it. Well anyways talking to Hannah, Amber, and trying to talk to Ryan (speaking of the devil I just got a text from him! haha) while listening to music and working on school =) Ill be back later! =) 

3:00ish in the morning

Well that all nighter didnt work out as planned I passed out in front of the computer around 3:15ish this morning working on word problems in algebra. I got all I need to get done in American History besides a few assignments I have to do tonight in a live debate thing and a DBA and an hour long video I need to watch and take not on and what not. Economics, I think I got all done except a DBA and a password protected test. Algebra 2, well I fell alseep while working on it and College and Career I definitely didnt get that done like I needed to. Tired but I kept yawning and couldnt see my screen so I moved on to Algebra. And it was a strange night. I could have sworn I heard my dad storm out of the house at 5 something this morning like he was running late or something idk but I guess he didnt and then I had yet again another werid/crazy dream! I wonder what these crazy dreams mean! Anyways got up officially at like 8 and went to the store with my mom came back and cooked breakfast and now Im working on word problems in algebra and when my mom gets out of the shower then Im going to get one. I got yet again another full day of school. Hoping I can get in a nap sometime today! =) I hope everyone has a GREAT day! =) And I think today so far Ive had the most views in one day then I ever have had! =) So THANK YOU! I wouldnt be blogging if it wasnt for my readers.! I love you all! Anyways, Peace for now.! 

Cousin

So I talked to my cousin tonight while catching up on school and we talked alot about deep stuff and what not =) its great to catch up with her! Since we've turned into highschoolers we havent talked much but tonight was amazing wish it didnt have to stop! But she has work so she needs her sleep =) haha I hope I get to talk to her more and more now that our high school careers are coming to an end soon! I remember us talking about the future when we were little, not afraid of anything! Haha, now that our times coming are we scared, confused, unsure but sure, or what.? We really dont know haha. We are for sure confused about alot but some things we know we are certain about. All we can do is pray and go. I do know that we are always going to do what we feel is right! Weither its crazy and our family thinks we are stupid but we know we are going to follow our heart and do what we feel is right =) Well I need to get back to this school work! I think Ive put a dent in it but not enough so here we go again lol. OH and a huge HUGE thanks to everyone reading!!! =) I love you all! and for now Peace =) 

All Nighter

So it looks like Im going to be staying up almost all night to get all this school work that I have to do done. I deff gotten in way over my head.! I didn't think it was going to be this hard to keep up with all my assignments, from the time I wake up till 10:30 every night I am working on school and I STILL get behind. I don't get it. =/ hopefully tonight Ill catch up on it all and hopefully get ahead some! Pray for me PPLLLLEEEAAASSSSEEEEE Im going to need it. Ill be up until its all done or until I pass out in front of the computer! I have 16 + assignments to do tonight! Its gonna be a long time Im telling you. But I have my music, the tv and friends that are going to text me and help me stay up *hopefully* Anyways a friend of mines cousin less then 5 years old had a seizure today! So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for her and her family! Well Im going to go get something to eat and get busy on this long night ahead of me. So Peace! =) Night all! 

Taylor =)

My beautiful goddaughter Taylor =) She's already smiling! She's going to be spoiled by me ALOT! Be aware Amber haha.! I love you both! 

Rappers

So my family and I were watching T.V. and this commercial comes on for this T.V. showing thats going to  be coming on and it has the song "Love the way you lie" by Eminem and my mom says "I dont get the point of this song" and my dads says its about a guy setting this girl on fire and her liking it. If you've never heard it I put the video below.   

So after watching this and my dad looking at the lyrics he says "This guy is sick." BUT then my dad continues to say "KJ-52 wrote a song for him." Then we looked that song up and listened to it because I never knew KJ-52 wrote a song to him. Its called "Dear Slim" and Ive attached that video down below as well.

 

After watching this I asked my dad if there were any lawsuits or anything and my dad says "No, but MTV and alot of the music shows and other rappers started saying bad things about KJ-52 and putting him and his music down which inspired KJ-52 too make a second to Dear Slim for Eminem called "Dear Slim Part 2 True Story Remix" And I have also attached that video below. 

Now if you listen to all this KJ-52 is trying to spread the gossiple to Eminem. But it could be to any rapper that sings songs like Eminem. I mean really listen to Eminem's song, not just the beat but the lyrics. The artist is singing about setting his girlfriend on fire if she tries to leave him again. To me that a little disturbing. Would you want your child listening to that.? I wouldnt, but then KJ-52 says in his songs instead of us Christian criticizing  Eminem we should be hitting our knees and praying for him. I honestly dont think he's that type of person I think he has adapted his talent into what everyone is wanting to listen to, how they want to listen to that or anyother song like that is beyond me but he's a white male trying to make a career in a commonly known black profession as a rapper. KJ-52 was not always a Christian rapper (which if you listen to the Dear Slim songs you will hear that) but now he is and hes using his rapping talent to spread the gospel. I have to admit I dont like listening to rap but I do love listening to KJ-52 and other Christian rappers. For all the other rappers, Im praying for you! We dont get to pick and chose who should come, so lets tell all and let them do with it as they please. As long as we tell the story. 

Richard Marx - Right Here Waiting For You

Broken Hearted

I told myself once apon a time that I would never have my heart broken again. Well slap me and tell me to wake up cause yesterday did just that. I thought since Ive had my heart broken so many times I wouldnt be able to feel any more heart breaks. Been in a relationship for a year 2 months and 10 days and not once did I have my heart broken this bad. For all you in a new relationship that believes its going to go far dont hide from the one you love, if something is bothering you then tell that person because if you dont then itll start a fight later on. Youll make the other person feel like crap and feel like they are whats upsetting you. And if your looking to get back at the other person and make them feel the way you did when they upsetted you, DONT! It will be ONE of THE WORSET mastakes you ever make! It wont get you anywhere, all it will do is cause a huge fight and make the other person feel like you never cared to start with. It will lead to tears, throwing up, going to a friend and telling them you cant believe that person and everything else, it will also lead to you not speaking for a day or so and not only that but I guarantee you BOTH will say awful things to the other, in which you should have just ripped their heart out from the beginning. AND if your partner in the relationship says nothing is wrong when you ask them what is wrong, THEN NOTHING IS WRONG! Dont push him/her to tell you whats wrong when nothings wrong because it will start a fight! If him/her says nothing is wrong then leave it at then cause 9 time outta 10 nothing is wrong. And if you ask him/her if they are mad or upset and they said no THEN THEY ARENT MAD OR UPSET 9 times outta 10. BUT if you keep asking and asking and asking then it is gonna make them upset and then it'll start a fight because you will think that they were "hiding" from you. Just do yourself a favor and believe your partner in the relationship, it works alot better if you do. Dont make the other person the punching bag, the one that takes all the blame and says "yea your right, im sorry." and puts it all on themselves when it was probably your fault. A relationship will not get anywhere if theres no trust, honesty, and believing the other persons. Now I do believe all relationships grow stronger after fights but DONT go looking for one or starting one purposely. So thats all I have to say about this. Going to the dentist, maybe post something later but until then bye. 


Your favorite blogger 
Kim 

My beautiful goddaughter Taylor.! Born at 2:48 this morning =)

Justice for Caylee

ARE YOU TELLING ME…

A woman who didn’t report her baby girl was missing for 31 days isn’t guilty?

A woman who spent 31 days partying, entering “hot body” contests, getting tattoos, & taking trips with her boyfriend instead of searching for her “missing” daughter is not guilty?

A woman who admitted to her friends that she “hated her daughter” & “couldn’t stand her” shortly before her daughter went “missing,” isn’t guilty?

A woman who was more concerned with calling her boyfriend than her daughters death once she was arrested and thrown in jail, isn’t guilty?

A woman who’s computer history consisted of multiple searches for chloroform, “household weapons,” and neck ringing shortly before her daughter went “missing” isn’t guilty?

A woman who stole money from her best friends by writing checks from their accounts and lying about it isn’t guilty?

A woman who claimed she had a job at Universal Studios and leading the police down every hallway through every department before finally admitting she didn’t have a job there isn’t guilty?

A woman who made up multiple persons, including the imaginary “nanny” that took care of her daughter every day, isn’t guilty?

A woman who spent 31 days telling her family and her boyfriend that her daughter was with the “nanny” on vacation while she was out partying and failing to mention that her daughter was actually “missing” or dead, isn’t guilty?

A woman who’s car smelled of decomposition and had traces of human remains in the trunk isn’t guilty?

A woman who backed her car up against dumpsters every time she went out with friends to cover up the smell of decomposition isn’t guilty?

A woman who claimed she had no idea where her daughter was before admitting that she accidentally “drowned” in the pool and she disposed of her daughters body to hide the accidental death, isn’t guilty?

A woman who claimed her father & brother sexually molested her and helped her dispose of her daughters body after she supposedly “drowned” isn’t guilty?

A woman who’s daughter was found with duct tape on her remains along with a heart shaped sticker that was identical to the stickers found in the family’s house, isn’t guilty?

A woman who popped a bottle of champagne at the announcement of her verdict instead of taking action to find her daughters killer isn’t guilty?

These are just a few off the top of my head. I normally don’t post on polities or the legal system. This just happens to strike a little closer to home.

I would never want to harbor hate in my heart for anything or anyone.

But I hope she gets what she deserves…

:’( I think they found the most heartless people they could to be on the jury, because that’s exactly what they are. Not cold hearted, heartless.

RIP Caylee, Im sorry they didnt lock her away. Your in a better place now. 

Words

Ive grown up on the phrase "Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." Well that is just a saying because its not true. Words do hurt and words can kill. They are deep and powerful. BUT yet other times they can be the only thing that makes you wanna get up or they are something to make you feel wanted. Either way, words are words and once they are said or type they are out there and they will never be able to be taken back. So choose your words carefully.


Hurtful Words:
If you say something mean and awful and hurtful to a person and if you meant something to the person that you said them to, they will ALWAYS remember it, they may forgive you for it but they will never be able to forget what you said, no matter how hard they try. I know because an adult figure in my life said something to me over a year ago and I havent been able to forget those words. He appoligized and I forgave him but it doesnt take the hurt those words caused away. Its still there. Calling people names and telling them they are good for nothing or whatever else you say to them, WILL hurt them. We are humans and we are gonna hurt. We are fragile, some more then others but either way none of us are as hard as nails like we try to claim we are. 
Loving Words:
Now the words of caring and happiness and love. These words can be so much powerful then the words of hurt. Telling a person "I love you", "Im here for you.", or simply "I care." phrases or words a person wants to hear out of everything. They want to know someone is actually there for them. Everyone wants that since of belonging and that feeling of someone does care, Im not here alone. Those words are the kind of words that a person wants to hear, that way they KNOW theres someone there they can talk to and go to for advice or whatever the case may be. Loving words are words that can encourage a person and not only that but bring a person up and make them feel better especially when they feel like their world is crashing down on them. Heard the phrase, "A smile can make a persons day." before.? I have and not only can a smile make a persons day but words of kindness can as well.  


Words can offten be taken of context so you always need to be sure your saying it in the right manner. NEVER say anything you dont mean. Bite your tounge and THINK before you speak. One simple word can make everything fall apart or it could make everything come together. Either way do what your parents have always told you "Think before you speak." Sometimes you dont think before, you just say and thats what can cause the most problems, so think then speak. Be slow to speak.