No one seems to understand

Why is it so hard for people to understand? Why is it so difficult for people to see the way I feel? Does anyone even care? I work my butt off for everyone. I put everyone and everything before myself and work my butt off for that person or for that thing and it seems that its just thrown back in my face. Its not my choice to do all this school, I didnt chose to do three extra classes outside and on top of school. Who would want to do Summer Classes and then three extra classes on top of my regular school? I dont think anyone would. Yes I admit I can be an overachiever but I want to be a teenager too! I want to be held accountable for MY actions and my responsibilities not anyone else. I am not responsible for anyone but myself. Until I get married and have childern of my own I am not responsible for any one but me, not my sister, not my brother, not the stranger across the street. No one BUT me.! So why punish me for something my siblings did or did not do. I do everything asked of me. Why cant everyone see that EVERYTHING I do is for everyone else but me.! Yes in the long run everything I am doing for everyone else is gonna help me but dont I matter? Dont my feelings and thoughts matter? No one has to go through everything I go through. Yes they were teenagers once or they are teenagers now but they didnt move multiple times and have their hardwork put done the drain to have to do it all over again. To have to redo all that school because it was erased and to have to remake friends a thousand times, its hard and difficult. More then anyone can imagine or even begin to think of. Whatever difficultly level you think it is and multiple it by ten and then you have the difficulty level. Most tell me they understand but they really dont. They have no idea. Until they actually come and physically live in my position for just a week maybe even less they will never understand. I guess Im just on my own. Have to do ten times as much more work to be good enough. Everyone has all these expectations and I cant seem to meet any of them. Maybe Im not good enough for anyone. What does it matter anymore. Ever since I moved everything has changed. Im going to go back to the person that takes everything in and burry everything and hide it instead of actually talking about it. Ill hide it all until Im by myself and then Ill cry or be mad or whatever else. I dont think anyone I know has ever experienced as much as I have. I know I have it better off then some people like teen moms or teens with an addiction problem but everyone thinks Im like a unsocial person because if Im not at school then I disappear and you cant find or get intouch with me until the next school day. I dont want to be seen as the person that never does anything and just disappears. I actually want to do stuff. I want to go to homecoming, I want to run for homecoming court, I want to go to football games on Fridays or I want to go to the mall or the beach with girlfriends on the weekend or go see my goddaughter or go out somewhere with my boyfriend like the beach or the mall or somewhere, I want to run for prom queen I want to go to prom. I wanted a sweet sixteen but I never got it. I guess Ill just be that unsocial person. Maybe thats what my class will vote me as in the yearbook. Who knows. Theres alot of things I want but I put it all to the side and not do it no matter how bad I want it. Im not a selfish person. *Sigh* Well Im off to go finish my Econ class. I might be back later. Oh yeah I will because I have to tell you all about my History class :) thats interesting. so Ill post again real soon! :)