As the new year approaches.

2011 wasn't that bad of year. Like every year it had its ups and it's downs. It's another year that I've made it through and this year has taught me alot of different things and made me realize some things as well. 2011 brought me my year and 8 months with my wonderful boyfriend. It had its low with grandpa Clinton's death, also it's low with finding out my grandmothers immune system is shot and she's on medication(infusions) for the rest of her life and also a dear friend in a tragic car accident. But she's recovering and making progress. You know this week spending with my grandparents has been hard. I don't see them often not only because I'm in Florida but because of school and now work., and it's gonna be even longer til I see them again, I'm alittle worried I won't see them they way I want to text them. My grandmother is suffering and hurting and it brakes my heart. She asked me today "Kim is there anything of mine you want.? That way you can have it before I die." and I couldn't say anything. I didnt know what to say. I was talking to Ryan and I asked him what am I suppose to say to that.? He said ask for her guidance and protection. I told him she wants me to name something material, I continued to say "I want her to keep her stuff, I don't want anything. I dont want her to leave me." I sound so selfish saying that, being older, there's this since or something that I know that it's not going to be long. I want to tell her it's alright when ever its time it's okay, I'll take care of everyone for her but then I don't want her to leave me. I know though that I will see her again one day so I'm not worried. I will love her always and forever like always, her and my granddad. It brakes my heart to see them like this though. I remember when we were little and we would go to the park and morning movies. Those memories are the memories I will always cherish. Nothing material could ever come close to those wonderful memories. I wish I could spend another week with them but my work called and told me I have training Wednesday/Thursday so I can't stay :( there's that saying "you never know what you got til you lose it." it's true it really is but when you see it infront of you fading little by little you see what you have. I love my grandparents and always will. I'm glad I have them in my life.! This new year stop and cherish the little moments and don't take the little things for granted, because before you know it, it'll be gone. 2012 I am ready for what you bring my way. As 2011 goes RIP Aunt Dot, Ms Sue, Grandpa Clinton, and Ben Breedlove you will be forever loved and missed and touch many people's hearts. < 3