As the new year approaches.

2011 wasn't that bad of year. Like every year it had its ups and it's downs. It's another year that I've made it through and this year has taught me alot of different things and made me realize some things as well. 2011 brought me my year and 8 months with my wonderful boyfriend. It had its low with grandpa Clinton's death, also it's low with finding out my grandmothers immune system is shot and she's on medication(infusions) for the rest of her life and also a dear friend in a tragic car accident. But she's recovering and making progress. You know this week spending with my grandparents has been hard. I don't see them often not only because I'm in Florida but because of school and now work., and it's gonna be even longer til I see them again, I'm alittle worried I won't see them they way I want to text them. My grandmother is suffering and hurting and it brakes my heart. She asked me today "Kim is there anything of mine you want.? That way you can have it before I die." and I couldn't say anything. I didnt know what to say. I was talking to Ryan and I asked him what am I suppose to say to that.? He said ask for her guidance and protection. I told him she wants me to name something material, I continued to say "I want her to keep her stuff, I don't want anything. I dont want her to leave me." I sound so selfish saying that, being older, there's this since or something that I know that it's not going to be long. I want to tell her it's alright when ever its time it's okay, I'll take care of everyone for her but then I don't want her to leave me. I know though that I will see her again one day so I'm not worried. I will love her always and forever like always, her and my granddad. It brakes my heart to see them like this though. I remember when we were little and we would go to the park and morning movies. Those memories are the memories I will always cherish. Nothing material could ever come close to those wonderful memories. I wish I could spend another week with them but my work called and told me I have training Wednesday/Thursday so I can't stay :( there's that saying "you never know what you got til you lose it." it's true it really is but when you see it infront of you fading little by little you see what you have. I love my grandparents and always will. I'm glad I have them in my life.! This new year stop and cherish the little moments and don't take the little things for granted, because before you know it, it'll be gone. 2012 I am ready for what you bring my way. As 2011 goes RIP Aunt Dot, Ms Sue, Grandpa Clinton, and Ben Breedlove you will be forever loved and missed and touch many people's hearts. < 3

I have to say it just doesn't seem like Christmas this year but in my opinion we should celebrate Christmas everyday :)) spent the day with my Clinton family, gave them their gifts whiched the LOVED.! :)) and Ryan almost cried when I gave him his he was so happy :)) they got me some really cool things too.! Like a forever lazy. It's so cool and nice.! :)) in a couple hours I'll be off to a long drive to sc to see my family :) I can't wait to see them.! Candle light service and then grandmas with family and then church service on Christmas day and then movies Monday morning with parents :)) gonna stay for a little while up there and then I have to come back because I start work. I hope I told y'all.! I got a job at a frozen yogurt shop:)) its a new place and they are looking to open right after the new year.! And right after the new year I'm having surgery :( January 12&13 - time to get these wisdom teeth out..! They are killing my mouth :( anywho getting ready to plan Ryan's birthday all out so that way I can do what I want :) oh and also remember Carol-Ann in your prayers. she's been admitted back to the hospital for her pancreas. I hope she will be home for Christmas and not in the hospital. well I'm out for the night. REMEMBER the reason for the season is to celebrate CHRIST's birth. He was born To save us and then he died for us. It should have been us on that cross but he took our punishment for us so we could have eternal life with him. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS.!!

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Generations :))

When we were 5, we wanted to be princess and cowboys. When we were 8/9, we wanted to be just like mommy or daddy. When we were 11, we wanted to be president. When we were 13, we wanted to astronauts or teachers. When we got to 15, we wanted to be it all and do everything. Now that we are juniors and seniors with half of the year gone and being forced to make decisions, we want to go back to being those little kids. The one thing us juniors and seniors need to make sure of is that we are showing those princesses and cowboys to enjoy life and finish school. That my friends, is the best decision we can make. To all my juniors and seniors don't stress it. Just go with the flow 20 years from now your still gonna wanna be ---- when you grow up. Set an example for the younger generation. My youngins out there don't wish your were already outta highschool because the real world is much more insane and you'll never know what's waiting in the other side. Live and love your life, there's nothing more then enjoying the time you have. Because before you know it the years are going to go by and your not going to be able what you did those years because you didn't enjoy that time and now it's all gone. Middle school and high school are years you can never get back enjoy it loves.! :) and always make good decisions. But most importantly be an insperation to the younger generation because they are always looking up to you.! :) have a wonderful day my readers.! Hope everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving.! :)

Forever

Goodness its been forever since Ive posted :/ so sorry to all my readers. So almost a whole month as gone by. But nothing really as happened. Just been really busy the past month!! School takes it all outta you if you know what I mean. Trying to figure everything out. The end of junior year is fastly approaching :/ gotta figure out the college stuff. Figure out what I want. I really REALLY want to go to UCF and open a wedding business for the hearing and the hearing impaired. But I have this feeling that won't happen... Sigh.. Just take it one step at a time and see what happens. Gave blood for the first time and had my first job interview as well - waiting to hear back from them. Hopefully it'll go as planned and Ill start in a week. Uhm lets see - I got straight A's on my first report card. Uhm I really enjoy learning ASL :)) can't wait to sign this special thing I have for my grandparents to them at their 50th year anniversary!! :)) Ryan and I had our year and six months November 2nd. Its all been good and can't wait for more. Well yeah - Im really tired - haven't been sleeping all that great so Imma go find something to eat and probably lay down on the couch. Its going to be a long weekend and I can't wait for it to end. Ill be back later! 

News & Tomorrow :))

So some GREAT news on Carol-Ann! She has had the breathing tube and chest tubes taken out, she has sat up in a chair, she has gained color in her face and is talking more and more. They are keeping her sedated though which is probably good - I wouldn't want her to feel the pain. The kids still are not allowed to see her yet and she is still in the ICU and will be there for atleast another week if not more. But she is doing wonderfully! So thank you for all the prayers - but please continue to pray and pray for her and her kids. :)) I love y'all Parker family. 


Well next weekend the 22nd is homecoming at Pasco High, Ryans school, and we are going to go but I could get a new dress this time so I have wonderful friends that are lending me dresses to try on and wear - its a toss up between two but I think I am going to go with the blue one. :)) So in the morning when my madre wakes up we are going to walk to the bank and transfer the money I need to go do what I need to do tomorrow, go to publix and buy some blonde hair die so I can redo my under roots and get the blue out and then give myself blonde highlights before getting a hair cut. Then after the bank and publix we will walk back home and then hopefully by that time Ryan and his mom will be here and then we are going out to get Ryans homecoming stuff :)) and then his mom is bring us back to my house were Ill do my hair and Ryan and I will work on projects and or watch tv and then after my hair is done we are going to walk to walmart where the nail salon is that Im getting my manicure and pedicure done (Im getting Ryan one too!! ((: hehe) and then when we are done there we will probably go get some subway to eat and then go get my hair trimmed and then back to the house to spend the rest of the day together probably watching tv :)) can't wait its going to be an interesting day!! Im going to be taking a lot of pictures!! Trying to figure out why my camera won't charge but I have Bryants camera charing my battery so Ill just change it out in the morning. Got one project done and I think Im going to call it a night and then finish the other one tomorrow. Anyways God Bless Y'all. Have a WONDERFUL night :)) 

Fight Hard Pray Harder

Some new news about Carol-Ann. The breathing tube and chest tubes are out! Which is great, however she still can not talk. But at least she can rest more comfortable now. Pray is an amazing thing! I know I have asked y'all to pray for Carol-Ann but add three more people to this prayer list please. Mac and Brett her two young children that do not understand why they can not see their mom. They are taking it harder and harder every day and they need prayers too. But Jack - husband and dad needs prayer as well. He is fighting two fronts at once. He has two children he needs to get to and from school and he's there with Carol-Ann everyday. Please pray for him as well. Please keep all the Parkers in your prayers please. 

Dear God,

You've heard our cries. You know the pain in our hearts right now. Lord I pray you be with Mac and Brett they are young and they do not understand what is happening. They need your comfort Lord. Please bring their mom to a speedy recovery so she can return to them. Be with their dad and husband Jack as well. He is trying to do it all right now and he needs your safety and comfort as well Lord. There is only so much one person can take until the break. Please be with him and ease him. Allow Carol-Ann a comfortable peace and rest. The more rest she gets the faster she can get to a speedy recovery. Lord I love this family to death please be with them and help them through this time of heartache. Thank you Lord, your will be done. 

In Christ Name. Amen 

Thank you everyone for the prayers! 

Prayer!!! Please.

Carol-Ann Parker, the mother of two Mckenzie and Brett and a wife; dear friends of mine and the kids I babysat for for years, was in the car cash Sunday on I-26 in South Carolina that sent 5 people to the hospital, flown or drove. One car in the west bound lane was changing lanes when it hit another car that swerved over into the east bound lane and hit two cars head-on (one of which was Carol-Ann) and then swerved back to the west bound lane where it hit another car. Her husband was flown to the crash site and saw her right after the collision, her two children thankfully did not see her like that but they did go to the hospital Sunday and were there until today when their dad took them back to school in West Columbia. She was in very critical condition when she arrived at Greenville Memorial Hospital. They did immediate surgery and they were able to stop the bleeding and get her stable. The CT scans showed there were no head injuries. She has a breathing tube and can not talk so she is spelling words in peoples hands, early Monday morning she spelled HOME in a loved ones hand so she has a goal to come home to Columbia. It also appears that her right hand and right foot may be broke. She's been running real high fevers, they have been keeping cool rags and running fans on her non-stop. This morning they went in and did a surgery to make sure all issues were addressed, they were and they closed her back up. Her family thought she was recovering great before the doctor came out and told them that her injuries are just that bad and she is still not out of the woods yet meaning anything could happen at anytime. They were also informed that the pancreas has suffered some damage which is making the doctors put in a feeding tube for 4 to 6 weeks, also because of the surgery today they have the ventilator on as well, they are planning to turn it off some time tomorrow, if it doesn't come off its no big deal. She is going to be in the ICU for 2 weeks if not more. It is unsure when she will be returning to Columbia but she has a long recovery and she is fighting for her life. I also found out that a 17 year old teenage girl lost her life this morning after fighting for her life after the crash. Please keep Carol-Ann and the Parker family in your prayers and also the 17 year old girl's family as well. Carol-Ann and her family are very dear friends of mine and mean a lot to me. I love them to death. Thank You All. 






Dear God, 
You know what happen early Sunday morning. Lord I pray that you give the doctors the knowledge the need to properly treat Carol-Ann. I pray you give Carol-Ann the strength she needs to pull through this. She has two young children that love her and want her to come home to them Lord. Give her family the peace they need and the strength they need to help her pull through this. I know its in Your hands now Lord and its up to You. Keep her safe. We all love her dearly. 
Thank You Lord. 




Carol-Ann your a fighter and a trooper and I KNOW you will pull out of this and be home with your children soon! I love you guys a bunch! ##AlwaysInMyHeart

Done :))

So I am completely done with my online classes! :)) Just waiting on this one teacher to finish grading everything and give me my final grade but other then that I am done! I passed government honors with a 93 and economics honor with a 90 :) makes me really happy - finally got out of the house for the first time in forever today - hung out with Ryan at his house, our friends came over and we had a cook out and everything his dad made some really great wild hog. I took a nap before they all came over though, really tired been trying to catch up on sleep from those long nights that I had for the online school when they got there we played Kriby, BS card game, pictionary game, talked watched a little football, gave the dog a bath and yeah it was a fun day. Carolina won I think they should keep Garcia outta the game from now on if Shaw is gonna give us wins like that 54 to 3 thats what we have been doing all season! Any who, in the process of finding a part time job and buying Christmas gifts and planning 3 surprise parties <3 should be fun. Going homecoming dress shopping tomorrow with mom, really tired but can't seem to sleep. Well gonna lay here and watch Loin King. I freakin love this movie! Well goodnight everyone! :))

Almost Done:)

So I took my Final Exam in Government today - waiting on her to finish grading it to see what I got as a final grade. Hoping I did really well! Then I completed the rest of my Economics today and Ill take the exam tomorrow. *Crossing my fingers* Ill pass that exam, I have a 95 in that class and would LOVE to pass with an "A" too! Hoping I pass both Econ and Gov with "A's" just to add more to my wonderful GPA haha whatever. But the sad part.... I have to complete 21 assignments by Friday so I can go to Ryans saturday for a party his moms throwing and so I can see him. So wish me luck, gonna try and get as much done tonight and all day tomorrow. So I hoping I can do it! Ive never failed a class in my life and I'm not going to let them kick me out and fail now! I will cry for the next two months if I get kicked out and fail : ( Ive worked too hard. Well anywhoo, let me get off here so I can start some and get some conquered tonight! Have a great night everyone! 

This time its Economics :)

Hey everyone, as many of my regulars know I have been using my blog for certain assignments here lately for my online school and its mainly been government but now I have an Economics one I have to do so I hope you like the change up some. :) heres the "Prompt" type thing and my answer or assignment part is below. You have chosen an environmental issue to research for your Module Six Project. For this honors assignment, explore another issue that your community is facing. Consider a challenge that has resulted in externalities affecting you and your local area. Perhaps your community has many people without work or a low high school graduation rate. Choose an issue that you feel strongly about, and consider how the issue relates to poverty.Make sure that you address these questions in your awareness presentation:

1. What is the issue?
2. What externalities does the issue raise?
3. How is the issue connected to poverty?
4. What helpful action can your viewers take?

My Part: Population

     In Florida we have many areas that show off the beauty of this state. With more and more people moving to Florida, however, many of these beautiful places are being destroyed and disturbed, animals becoming endangered while others are over populating these areas. We need our officials to step up and figure out a way to Preserve our natural land heritage and the animals in it. If Florida officials don't find a way to decrease the increasing of population then some externalities we could have would vary from endangered animals going extinct, our beautiful lands cut down or polluted taking away from the beauty and making it become nothing, overcrowding of people leading to decrease of jobs, etc. This issue could connect to poverty because if population continues to increase and increase in the state of Florida then it is going to become hard to find a job and then people will get behind in payments and have no money for food to feed their children. They will lose their house, their car, maybe even their children because they have no job to provide for themselves and their families. A good way for people to help I suppose would be to address the problem to the county or state government. Voice their opinions and state why this is such a big deal like I have above. We could get police officers to check more often to see if people have their green cards or not and to tighten portal of coast guard. It may sound mean to see them back to where ever they came from but we need to resolve this issue. 

Missing

I think its getting harder and harder everyday to go without seeing the one that means more then the world to me. 10 minutes without talking feels like 10 hours the 6 to 7 days with out seeing him feels like 6 to 7 years. :( and when I do see him for 9 hours one day a week it only feels like 5 minutes :( I just wish I was 22.7 miles closer to him then I could see him 5 school days and on weekends, I could talk to him more and be in his arms and have a sweet kiss from him. He could hold me and let me cry instead of trying to comfort me over the phone. :( I don't think him or anyone else understands how badly I miss him and how I would give the right side of my body to be with him. I admit it, I for one am jealous of all the couples out there that get to see that special someone everyday. Those people should really cherish it instead of take it for granted because some people don't get to see that love one everyday. Not only me but think of all the military people that have their spouse or their mom or their dad or someone they love dearly. They for one have to worry everyday "Am I ever going to be able to hold them again" "Are they gonna come home alive" or "Am I going to get that knock on the door and get told the words I swore I would never hear" You NEVER know what could happen but those of you who have that loved one that means the world to you and you can see them everyday, let them know you love them and hold them and hug them, because if you take them for granted sooner or later they are going to be gone. So every time I see Ryan I CHERISH that and until the day I can be with him 24/7 by his side I will hold my head high and know everything will be okay. To all you military families, I know you pain of wondering those questions, yea I miss Ryan every second of everyday but my Uncle was just re-deployed overseas and I wonder everyday - "Will I get to see him again" "Am I going to get that horrid email or phone call" but I will trust in God to keep my Uncle safe. 


Dear God, 
Thank you for another day Oh Lord. You are a God of many wonders and I praise You, Right now Lord I want to pray for all the men and women overseas fighting in the war. I pray that you keep them in Your hands and keep them safe under Your wing. Not only them but keep us families that have that loved one fighting in this deadly war. Give us the courage and the hope to keep going and know all is well in your eyes and everything will be taken care of. Also Lord give comfort to those families that have already lost love ones, let them know You are here to provide support and care and comfort to them. Thank you Lord Jesus for everything you have done. 
In Your Name I pray, Amen 


Well Im off to work on some school and other stuff while Ryan is SAT testing. 

Ever feel like the bad guy??

Do you ever have that feeling like your always the bad guy.? No matter what you do, youll always be the bad guy.? Yea well that's me. The one and only bad guy out there. It seems like nothing I do is right. Nothing I do is good enough. Still on house lockdown until online school is complete. I have no idea what to do anymore. I dont even have a life outside of school, never have. I go to school come home and do more school. And it's alot of stress and hardwork and I'm not doing it because IIIIII want to I'm doing it because/for my parents wanting me too. Seems like I'm constantly fighting with someone and being downgraded all the time. even if I did nothing. Downgraded and fought for a while now and it's crushing my heart every time. Between everything I wouldn't know if my hearts even there anymore because it's been broken into many pieces, unsure if it's able to be put back together. Three people I know and another friend are no longer friends with eachother because of me. Or atleast not talking to the other because of me. The three people were rude and inconsiderate when it came to my friend and I religion and I opened my mouth and said something and it all went up into flames from there even though I shouldnt feel ashamed about my religion and by no means I am NOT ASHAMED I will stand up for my God and my Savior and my Lord 24 hours a day 7 days a week but I feel awful for me opening my mouth tearing four friends since elementary school apart. Maybe its for the better though who knows. God does. Idk, havent been myself lately and I dont know why. Just want to be left alone really, things are hard and talking to people about it seems to make it worse because no one understands what it feels like to be me and everything. I dont know I dont think it matters anymore. I was alone for along time and got use to it, I was never hurt then. I could handle everything but now I cant. Id much rather keep everything in but people wont let me. They want me to talk about it and maybe I do want to talk about it but I dont WANT help. I just want to talk and cry and just have them hold me and let me cry in their arms instead of trying to fix everything. I just want someone to hold me, because I know they wont understand but just hold me and let me cry. *sigh* anyways I was going to start up a FCA at my school but we already have one so Im going to try and attend if I can find a way home after school and Im trying to get an ROTC program for next year. Crossing my fingers! Well I got tons of homework and online school along with typing an email so Later my lovves! 

American Government - 6.03 Jury Duty

Hey everyone! I have another assignment for Government that I need to blog for :)) so I hope you enjoy.!

So on September 20, 2011 I went to a teen court offered in my community. Teen court is where teenagers that have committed a crime come to be juried by other teens that will hear the case and come to a conclusion on what the punishment should be. We the jury were sworn in at the beginning to try the case equally and fairly. After we sworn in, the defendant would be sworn in and then we would hear what the case was about. We did a grand jury first. The defendant in this petty theft crime pled guilty and admitted to  stealing the items. We as the jury asked the defendant different questions about the crime, why she did it, what she learned, would she do it again, etc etc. After we felt like we asked enough questions that we could come up with a reasonable punishment for the defendant we went back in to the jury room and went through the list of things we could check off for them to do. I said I would be the foreman (The one who writes on the punishment paper and then reads the verdict the the defendant when we rejoined the court.) We went through each punishment and voted for the different things listed. Came up with what we thought was good punishment for the person. We then rejoined the court and I read the verdict aloud to the defendant and the the ones sitting in the court room. After that case was done we moved on the the next case that was a trail case. The defendant was an underage person with a alcoholic beverage in their hand. This case we had other teen training to become attorneys be the defendant attorney and then the state. They presented their opening arguments (which was no evidence) and then we moved into calling the defendant to the stand where both the prosecutor and the defendant attorney questioned the person. After that we moved into the closing arguments (which was also not evidence) after we heard all that was going to be said like we did before we went to the jury room and came up with the best type of punishment the defendant needed to do. This case was harder then the first because there was not enough presented but we did what we could. Again went out and I presented what the jury's verdict was. At that time all the cases were heard and the verdict given to so we were dismissed. It was all very interesting, one harder then the other but it was good. It was also a very nice experience to actually know what a court room feeling feels like and what its like to serve on jury. I enjoyed it very much. The two ways to become a citizen are one being born in the United States or two by naturalization. Both apart of the 14th amendment. Citizenship should not be taken lightly, its a honor to have the rights you do as a citizen. But to have rights there are things the country needs you to do in order to keep the nation going.

So heres my government assignment :))

~10 years ago~

Where was I ten years ago.? I was in my first grade classroom watching PBS kids with my classmates when it was all of a sudden stop and the news interrupted. As us 6 years old watched as the second plane hit the second tower. Then watched as both collapsed and thousands of people died. A day that will be forever engraved into my heart and my mind. The start of a war being declared. And our men and women being deployed one be one. Some never to return others return but get sent back again. One of those men is my uncle. On his second or third tour over, not knowing when he will return but fighting for our country and keeping us safe. A time in history when we all came together to help one another get past this tragic event. Thousands of people died, and thousands were not found but presume dead. My prayers still with those families. Not only was that loved one a victim of a terrorist act But so where you. And not only those but all of as a victim of a horrible act. Ten years later it still hurts but we found and killed the two behind the attacks of 9/11. *RIP 9/11 victims who passed away. Forever in our hearts and minds*

OH and GO CAROLINA!

Oh and Go Carolina Gamecocks! Peak them Dawgz all the way back to the dog house!! :) 

No one seems to understand

Why is it so hard for people to understand? Why is it so difficult for people to see the way I feel? Does anyone even care? I work my butt off for everyone. I put everyone and everything before myself and work my butt off for that person or for that thing and it seems that its just thrown back in my face. Its not my choice to do all this school, I didnt chose to do three extra classes outside and on top of school. Who would want to do Summer Classes and then three extra classes on top of my regular school? I dont think anyone would. Yes I admit I can be an overachiever but I want to be a teenager too! I want to be held accountable for MY actions and my responsibilities not anyone else. I am not responsible for anyone but myself. Until I get married and have childern of my own I am not responsible for any one but me, not my sister, not my brother, not the stranger across the street. No one BUT me.! So why punish me for something my siblings did or did not do. I do everything asked of me. Why cant everyone see that EVERYTHING I do is for everyone else but me.! Yes in the long run everything I am doing for everyone else is gonna help me but dont I matter? Dont my feelings and thoughts matter? No one has to go through everything I go through. Yes they were teenagers once or they are teenagers now but they didnt move multiple times and have their hardwork put done the drain to have to do it all over again. To have to redo all that school because it was erased and to have to remake friends a thousand times, its hard and difficult. More then anyone can imagine or even begin to think of. Whatever difficultly level you think it is and multiple it by ten and then you have the difficulty level. Most tell me they understand but they really dont. They have no idea. Until they actually come and physically live in my position for just a week maybe even less they will never understand. I guess Im just on my own. Have to do ten times as much more work to be good enough. Everyone has all these expectations and I cant seem to meet any of them. Maybe Im not good enough for anyone. What does it matter anymore. Ever since I moved everything has changed. Im going to go back to the person that takes everything in and burry everything and hide it instead of actually talking about it. Ill hide it all until Im by myself and then Ill cry or be mad or whatever else. I dont think anyone I know has ever experienced as much as I have. I know I have it better off then some people like teen moms or teens with an addiction problem but everyone thinks Im like a unsocial person because if Im not at school then I disappear and you cant find or get intouch with me until the next school day. I dont want to be seen as the person that never does anything and just disappears. I actually want to do stuff. I want to go to homecoming, I want to run for homecoming court, I want to go to football games on Fridays or I want to go to the mall or the beach with girlfriends on the weekend or go see my goddaughter or go out somewhere with my boyfriend like the beach or the mall or somewhere, I want to run for prom queen I want to go to prom. I wanted a sweet sixteen but I never got it. I guess Ill just be that unsocial person. Maybe thats what my class will vote me as in the yearbook. Who knows. Theres alot of things I want but I put it all to the side and not do it no matter how bad I want it. Im not a selfish person. *Sigh* Well Im off to go finish my Econ class. I might be back later. Oh yeah I will because I have to tell you all about my History class :) thats interesting. so Ill post again real soon! :)  

Getting Sick And Tired

I am getting SO sick and tired of people complaining and complaining and complaining. "I have to much homework" "I dont like that teaher she makes us do to much work" "This is such a drag" "This is to much stress" "Its to early" "Im to tired" "Im not a good test taker" and blah blah blah Im sure I could go on and on.! I am getting so sick of hearing it. Its HIGHSCHOOL people and we have been in school since 5K you know how it works! So stop complaining and saying its to much stress, because I promise you that until you do what I do EVERYDAY and even on weekends you wont complain again. Until you get up at 5:45 to get dressed and make your lunch and get all your stuff together, ride the bus for 30mins or more and listen to your music but but but the three girls sitting around you talk way louder then your music and go on and on and on about how they have a crush but they cant talk to him because then he'll know or their hair wasnt doing what it wanted or they didnt have enough time to do their make-up or they dont have on matching socks or whatever else then get to school and look at those plain white as white can get walls with the lights that bounce off of them and give you a killer headache for 7 hours then you get back on the bus and listen to the same girls yapp yapp yapp about how he looked at her or whatever THEN get home and come do ANOTHER 7 hours or more of MORE school and staring at a computer screen and including homework then have to make sure dinner is ready and chores are done and everything else and have to do it all over again OH and you do school on the weekends.! Then stop complaining about everything because I dont want to hear it and Im sure other people are tired of hearing the same old Complaining from your mouth! To have to go through moving and all your credits being taken from you and your now a junior and still not everything is caught up is STRESSFUL! No one understands, No one! Just stop complaining and get off your lazy butts and do the work.! Its not that much! 


Many people want highschool to drag out longer because they arent ready to face the real world, well I am ready for highschool to end. Ive had an awful highschool experience, doesnt look to be getting any better, and ready for it all to come to an end! No one stops to care about others they just throw their problems out there. I have put everyone in my life before myself always but when is someone go to stop and put me first at least once and see if Im really okay.? I dont expect it from anyone but it would be alittle nice.. It would be nice.. But I dont expect anything from anyone. I have always and will always put everyone infront of myself. 


Anyways Im out to go do more school. Had an awful day and cant wait for it to end. Peace. 

WooHoo!!! =)

WOW IM SO SORRY FOR THAT LAST POST! I deleted it, my brother or sister (brother) did that while I steped away from my computer. ANYWAYS! Im so excited!! =) I passed my Algebra class with a low "B" its not the B I wanted BUT its better then what I thought! =) I thought I was gonna get a D or a C but I came out with a B which is good :) now I just have to work my butt of in Pre-Cal to get that A with a 5gpa to make up for the B but Im sure I can do it *I hope*. Get my facebook back today. This school year is gonna go by FAST! I mean homecoming is RIGHT AROUND the corner! But hopefully it will be a good year! May have got to exicited to fast about my junior prom cause me and my friends were talking about it and I talked to Ryan about it and to him its a no go.... so I dont know yet. We shall see.! Going to his Senior Prom though! :) so still excited about that!! :) I got to get his Christmas present and I have to get busy on his dads! Its gonna look good :) anyhoo off for now. Peace! :) 

First day back to school

So today was the offical first day back to school. Excited.? Nervous.? Worried.? NAH! Im glad to be back.! I mean I sit at home all summer doing school, I would much rather be in the school around people doing school! This year is gonna go by fast I can already see it. I mean for crying out loud Homecoming is in September 20 something! GAH! Thats NEXT month and then Thanksgiving and winter break are gonna be here before we know it! Oh well :) I finished my Algebra just waiting on my final grade! I was talking to my guidence councilor today and by thanksgiving break im gonna have like 17 credits and then at the end of this year Ill have 21 or more So Im so far ahead now! Oh well next year three highschool classes and then to the community college for the rest of the day! Researching colleges so I can stay close to Ryan but my first pick is UCF. Anywho. Theres this kid in my Chem class that looks EXACTLY like a person I use to know, except he's alot tanner and shorter. It really freaks me out. Hhhmmm. Oh well. Well off to do online school! LOL How was your first day.?!?

"No one Like You"

You are more beautiful
Than anyone ever
Everyday You're the same
You never change, no never

You are more beautiful
Than anyone ever
Everyday You're the same
You never change, no never

And how could I ever deny
The love of my Savior
You are to me everything
All I need forever

How could You be so good to me?

There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You

Everywhere You are there
Earth or air surrounding
I'm not alone, the heavens sing along
My God You're so astounding
How could You be so good to me
Eternally I believe that'

There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You
There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You

You, You, You, You, You, You

How could You be so good to me?
How could You be so good to me?
We're not alone, so sing along
We're not alone, so sing along, sing along, sing along

Here we go!

There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You

There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You
There is no one like You
There has never ever been anyone like You
There is no one like our God, yeah








^^ I love this song! 

Goal

So I had my facebook and Tv taken until I complete 2 of my online classes. Specially Algebra BEFORE school starts Monday. So my goal for today is to gett all of the last 7 assignments done today! :) and then maybe I can corse my mother into giving me facebook or Tv back :) things are getting alittle easier, but its still a little tough but Im gonna make it through. Well anyways =) off to do school :)

American Government 4.03 Congressional Election Stimulation

In my Government class, we have to do a WebBlog for this particular assignment of 500 words (this beginning doesnt count lol) so I figured why not go ahead and use my own WebBlog to complete this assignment. We are randomly given a Candidate, we read about their background that would assist us in deciding the best decision for a particular senerio. So lets continue shall we =) Enjoy. 

I, Senator Jones, am running for the election to continue as Senator in a second term. My state has a large number of citrus plants in which need to be harvested. The elderly voters in this state are not out in the heat harvested our citrus fruits, instead there are a number of illegal immigrants that have been hired on at a cheep rate to harvested what needs to be harvested. These illegal immigrants here are making a rising price of insurance, energy and gas. My state is full of elderly voters and  I am here to provide you with answers to scenarios in which I hope to win your votes. 

Scenario one: The Senate is considering a bill that would enforce serve consequences to the person or business who hire illegal immigrants to work for them cheeper. My state is heavily dependent on the labor from these immigrants because they work for cheep. Do I agree to this bill that grants immunity to the illegal immigrants that are already in the country and prohibit new/more to come. Or do I say, “No, I don’t agree” and allow more illegal immigrants to come and work for these business with no penalty? 

My Action: I agree with this bill, because of illegal immigrants there is a rising cost of insurance, energy and gas. Voting for the bill would lower these prices and here in American we have a minimum wage requirement you most pay your employees, this is also enforcing our everyone is equal with equal rights, jobs, and so forth. But I agree that the immigrants that have already lived here and worked for these companies should be allowed to stay and continue to work with an increase of pay and citizenship to the United States. So I vote for the bill. 

^^ My results for agreeing with this bill was negative. The business that rely on these cheep illegal immigrants do not agree and it has lowered my state approval. 

Scenario two:  The teachers union wants to reform or even possibly doing away with the state-wide assessment testing. The senior citizens that are voting however wants the schools in your state to be more accountable for teaching their students. There is also a concern about the No Child Left Behind Act. 

My Action: I believe the teachers showed get paid or have a bonus based on their students academic performance. This would hold the teachers more accountable and teachers would find more efficient ways of teaching their students. I do strongly believe in the no child left behind act but you cant not slow the other students down for one student. If that one student can not comprehend what is being taught then the teacher should tutor or suggest a tutor and help the student more outside of classroom time. So I would vote against the reform and hold the teachers more accountable. 

^^ My results on holding our teachers more accountable for the students performances is said to be negative. The elderly people are learning more about the reform and starting to agree with the reform rather then disagree with it. 

Scenario three: A news journalist went digging in my past and found out that I was a draft dodger and a student protester and now that this is happened a lot of rumors have come out concerning my past. Do I go on a news program and do an one-on-one interview or do I insist the people that is has no bearing on the situation now? 

My Action: I would go on a popular news station and explain to the people that everyone has done stuff in there past that could be questioned but at the time we did what we thought was right. Although I was a student protester, I had my reasons for doing so. The past is the past and we are in the present. Can’t allow the past to dictate our future. 

^^ As a result for my answer, I receive neutral feedback. Bringing up the past could be a dangerous thing but my campaign manger knew of these things and had a plan already together. Now all I can do is wait and see how this impacts my results. 

Scenario four: Natural disasters can strike at any moment, hit any place at any time as we have seen in the most recent years. The bill on the Senates floor proposes putting a cap on insurance rates so that they will not go up due to the natural disasters. Insurance companies claim that should not be done and the insurance rate needs to be raised so that they can pay for for the past years of natural disaster and prepare for the future ones. Although all insurance payers believe the cap is necessary, the Senate fears that with this cap the federal government will have bail the insurance companies out of debt out of federal money. 

My Actions: I believe the federal government is already paying for a lot towards the insurance companies and the people need a break from having to pay for damage that wasn’t their fault to begin with. The people should not be punished and pay outrages insurance rates. With this I voted for the cap on insurance rates. 

^^ My results were positive. Although the insurance companies may be experiencing hardship the voters are extremely happy that they do not have to pay even more insurance. They have already been through enough and don't need to worry about insurance rates increasing. 

Election results: It appears the voters believe you were not the voice of the people very well in your first term of Senate and they want a voice. You have lost your bid for reelection. 

Reflections:
Now that you have completed your simulation experience, you will share your own observations and opinions of the election process by writing a minimum of one paragraph answering each of the following questions:

a. Did you agree with the outcome of your simulation experience? Why or why not?

b. What might have changed the outcome?

c. How do the scenarios compare to the local politics of your congressional district?

d. What do you feel has the greatest impact on the election results- local or national issues? And why?

e. Do you agree or disagree with this?

f. How do local issues affect the ability of Congress make national decisions?

I think the stimulation experience was a lot of fun and interesting. Yes I agree with what the people said about not having a voice for what they wanted exactly. However, I believe my response were legit and reasonable but you can’t always please the people. The way that the outcome could have been any different is if I appealed more to the younger/business owners voters in the state. The scenarios are just like “what if” questions but our congressional district have to make decisions like that everyday. I believe local issues has more impact on votes for a state Senator, what does the nation have to do with our local issues that we want a voice for. Yes I agree because we don’t want a Senator to have a voice for the nation but for our state and our local needs. Knowing each individual states issues could help congress find an underlining way to fix the problems. 

One thing after another

Every day's the same She fights to find her way She hurts, she breaks, she hides, and tries to pray, She wonders why. Does anyone ever hear her when she cries? 


^^ Lyrics to a song that seems like its describing me in it. One moment everythings good and things were  looking up and looked like I was going to have atleast a little fun for this summer and then in a matter of hours everything turned upside down. First Grandpa Clinton dies, and then I go to SC with my parents to pick up my siblings that spent three weeks there. I never thought I would hear or see myself saying I hate SC and want to leave. And theres really no reason behind why I hate it but for some reason I dont want to be there. And then I learn more news that is just eating me up. I dont wanna say on here right now because if someone I know reads this and they know the person Im talking about I dont wanna start craziness. But Im scared. I dont wanna lose the one Im talking about. Only me and one other person knows that I know of and the other person I dont think they understand fully and what not. I hate being the one to know stuff. I use to be one of the kids that wanted to know stuff first so I could brag about knowing something first and what not but now... I wish I didnt know. I wish I was kept in the dark about it but then Im glad Im not in the dark about it. I dont know.. I know God has a plan for everything and there are reasons for Him doing what He's doing but I cant come to terms with this. I dont want Him to take this person from me. I know they are ready to go home and be with Him BUT Im not ready for that. They are suppose to be here for my graduation and for my wedding and for my first kid. And they might be but its not looking good. I feel so selfish and feel like I should have done more, I dont know. I still cant believe it. I know I have a good friend (Hannah) to talk to about this but the one person I want to talk to (Ryan) I cant because I feel like its to soon to talk to him about something like this. He just lost someone and I dont wanna upset him by saying some stuff. I dont know.. I feel like theres no one to talk to. I cant handle all this at once. I know scripture says totally different, because it goes back to my post in June "God has a positive answer" and here are the ones I know scripture is saying right now: 

You say: "I feel all alone"  

God says: "I will never leave you or forsake you" 

Hebrews 13:5

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"    

God says: "Cast all your cares on Me"  

1 Peter 5:7

You say: "I can't manage"

God says: " I will supply all your needs"

Philippians 4:19

You say: "I'm afraid"

God says: "I have not given you a spirit of fear"

 II Timothy 1:7

You say: "I can't go on"

God says: " My grace is sufficient"    

 II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm91:15

You say: " I can't figure things out"

God says: "I will direct your steps"   

Proverbs 3:5-6

You say: "I can't do it"

God says: "You can do all things"

 Philippians 4:13  

I know all of this is true but I dont know. I know God is watching over me and everything but it all seems so confusing and hard. I just wish I really could talk to someone, I know two of the best people in my life wants me to talk to them and I want to talk to them but I just cant and I dont know why. I was up last night staring out my window at the moon praying on and off and I told Him when Hes ready he can take this person. I dont know if I meant it or not but I told Him it was okay. With all of that I have school to worry about and Im just so overwhemled right now I dont know what to do. Im gonna keep praying and hope everything comes together soon. Not sure on how much more I can handle.. But trying to keep my head held high and keep moving forward. Hope everyone has a great day! 

Harder then Ever

I dont think a summer could be as worset as mine has been =/ I didnt think it could get any worse but last Thursday proved me wrong :( Miss grandpa Clinton so much and things that I prefer not to go into detail about is the hardest part about it all. Went to Ryans house Saturday and it was hard but I think it helped alittle. We went through old pictures looking for some of grandpa and found some Ryan as a baby and his brother. It was fun to look at that stuff, but hard when it came to those of grandpa. Had to scan them in to the computer and then print them off. Which seemed like forever. I dont know why I feel so much for someone I hardly knew. Its alot harder then I thought. The funeral is tomorrow, its a bad way to meet the family =/ but tomorrow is gonna be hard, our year and 3 month anniversary but its not gonna matter because we are gonna be spending it with family remembering the times we all had with grandpa Clinton. Since my dads taking me there on his way to work Ill be at Ryans house around 8 so Ill probably help his mom make sure everything is cleaned up and what not. Speaking of his mom, she melted my heart Saturday, as I was getting ready to leave she got up and gave me a hug and told me she loved me like three times and then she started bragging about me to her friends that came by to see how she and the family was doing. It really ment alot. I cant explain it but it was special. I honestly feel like apart of the family now. Really not looking forward to tomorrow because I dont want to cry in front of people I dont know, its gonna be a hard day tomorrow. Thank you to everyone who has kept us in your prayers, it means alot. Well I think Im gonna get off here for now. 


Dear Lord, thank you for another day. Lord we dont know your planns and we cant for see the future. We really didnt see this coming but we know grandpa Clinton isnt suffering anymore and he is now with grandma Clinton and You. Please be with us all tomorrow as we gather together to celebrate grandpas life and remember all the good times. Please take all of our hurt, pain, and sorrow away and comfort us. Lord we are your sheeps and you are are sheepard, watch over us and take care of us. Thank you, Love, Kim. 

Sometime in Life.

Sometimes in life you gonna be thrown many different things. Curve balls, Fast balls, and then some are ones you cant dodge so you get hit in the gut with them. Thats where I am right now, I feel like if been hit in the gut with a fast ball. And it hurts ='/ Ryans grandfather passed away yesterday. When I got the text I litterally was about to drop my phine because I was shaking so bad. I was up til 11 talking on and off to Ryan before he tried to go to sleep. I on the other hand could barely sleep going in and out all night because I wanted to be up if he texted me or if he called needing someone, and I havent been able to eat yet, just dont have an appetite for food. He says he's fine but I know better, I know hes trying to be strong for his parents but I know him and I know he's hurting on the inside. Because I know I am, I only met grandpa clinton like 4 times. But I cant explain it, I feel like I lost someone I was close to. Ryan and I have been together for over a year and his family feels like family to me like I hope mine does to him. So I dont know if I feel hurt because I lost a family member or if I hurt because Ryan hurts, or I hurt because I cant help, or maybe all three ='/ I dont know. But I know Ive been crying on and off for the past almost 12 hours. Sat in the shower for an hour and a half crying and then called my grandma and cried more. I dont want to find out how I will be when one of my grandparents die. Or anyone in my family. But I know Ryan will be there for me like I am here for him right now. Im trying so hard to be strong for him but its hard :( I keep praying for strength. Please pray for us in this time of need. I may not blog for a couple days but bare with me plase. RIP Grandpa Clinton

Please Vote For Dani!

Good morning my Awesome friends. I need a really big favor from all of you that dont already know about this, Please go to this link and register (you only have to reg. once) and vote for Dani to sing the National Anthem @ the Iowa state fair. She is the granddaughter of a friend of mine and needs your votes. Remember her name is DANI! Thank you! you can vote up to five time each day until aug 2nd. so please help us get her there. she is in closing running to this this. the first place girl has media coverage and Dani does not so please reg and vote five time everyday it will only take a min of your time.   

American Government Debate

So I had an American Government debate today in my online FLVS course and the focus questions was Should students be allowed to display the Confederate Flag in school, I remind you its a live debate so we go back and forth. Well someone on the opposing side (Negative) said that the confederate flag represents Slavery and I stop and butted in and said no it doesn't and we started going back and forth and he told me the KKK wore that falg so since I wear it Im an associate for the KKK.!! I mean really are people so rude and ignorant to say that.?!?! Attacking someone they dont even know and telling me Im KKK and telling me I shoudl die.? WWOOWW is all I have to say.  Below I copied and pasted a question I had to answer at the end of the debate. My view.




7. A paragraph explaining your personal views on whether the Confederate Flag should be allowed in school.                          I personally believe that either its the Confederate Flag or Great Britain Flag I don't think it should matter. The Confederate Flag is a representation of the south, it does not represent slavery or KKK. In side and out side of school we have the freedom of expression and what is the school system showing us if they don't give us that right in school. They are showing us no matter what the Constitution says we don't really have right because they are going to limit our right to freedom of expression. People who believe it represents slavery and the KKK and want to tell me that since I wear it I'm an associate of the KKK needs to read up and see that the flag does not represent what they say it does. Any and everything can offend someone, are they going to band all of it in the schools? If you band one thing band them all. We have the freedom to express our religion in school so why are they gonna band us from expressing our culture views? If someone comes from India to America and go to a public school they arent going to band them from their cultural views, wearings or anything else in school, so why the Confederate Flag. This is my personal view.   




Now whats YOUR view!!?? Theres no hard feelings for whatever your view is and if you wish to comment feel free but keep it clean and considerate. Thanks =) Just thought I would share my experience in my first live debate.! 

College

So Ive been debating this topic for a while now. Idk if I want to or not, I know everyone expects me to and I dont wanna dissapoint anyone. But I think I made my choice and I will go. And Ive decided and UCF, an off branch called Rosen College. Offers what I want and looks really nice and its a little over an hour from parents and Ryan. But I have a HUGE question, I want to finish college before 4 years, Im doing dule enrollment and I plan on doing classes in the summer after I apply so if I do this would I finsih before four years like I plan.? If anyone can help please let me know.! Please Please Please let me know. I plan on doing Event Mangement. To eventually become a wedding planner. Well anyways back to researching. Hope everyone has a nice day!!! 

Lost, Confused, A little Damaged

The title of this blog is also part of a song by KJ-52 called Broken People and those words; Lost and Confused is exactly how I feel right now maybe even a little "damage".. Well the good thing is my school credit thing got fixed and Im back on track (ahead) like Im suppose to be. And that makes me feel better, in a sense.. But now I don't know anymore.. I don't know what to do, think, say or act because every time I do something say something or even think something I screw something else up. Im tired of being a screw up. Life is coming upon me so fast, I mean this year Im going to be a junior.. Then senior year and then out in to the real world... I have a lot of choices to make and I just wish there was someone there to help me making them. I wish I could see in to the future and see the ways things might be so I know what the right choice is. Is there a right choice.? All of a sudden everything became a blur, I had it all almost figured out but now it all seems like a blur. Do I take this path or this one.? I feel like Im on a broken road and it feels like I have no one to help me chose which way I should I go. What if I chose one way and then later regret it.? I don't wanna look back and say to myself "I should have chosen the other path" Do I go to college and put other plans on hold and be gone for 4 years.? Or do I go ahead do the one thing I know for SURE I want and stay.? Or what.? Why does it seem that everything is so hard.? I know what I want so why am I making it difficult.? The plans you shared with me sound more then amazing but why am I making it so difficult.? Why do I all of a sudden feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.? So many questions but theres no answers. I wish I had a North Star pointing me in the right direction or a sign from God showing me that this choice will be better. But I know God has His own timing in showing us what He sees for us. So I guess all I can do is pray. Wish I really knew what to do. Im tired of everyone else telling me what to do, I wanna do what I want to not what they see for me. Im sick of feeling like a failure because everyone has their own expectations for me and I don't want to desiappoint anyone but I can't please everyone, dont they know that.? I dont think anyone understands what they put me through, being the first child and the first one to go to college(one expectation), I just dont know anymore and I wish I did... I dont wanna disappoint anyone but I wanna do me.... Imma shoot off here for now, dont forget about the new "All you page". Hope everyone has an amazing day!   

Alittle Nervous

So I have an appointment tomorrow at my school to hopefully get my credits fixed, but I have this feeling that its not going to work. =/ I dont know what Im going to do if its not. I feel like giving up, Ive put  up with so much with school and Ive put in so much effort and hard work for it all to just go down the drain and then they expect me to redo all that hard work and make up those assignments.?!? I dont think its fair, Ryan told me if it doesnt get fix then he'll help me and make up those credit with me. I told him I dont see the point and he says to get your diploma. I see where he is coming from but I mean really, why should I put in more time and hard work (when its killing me already) into something they screwed up.? Im so scared that its not going to get fix because if it doesnt Im going to get discouraged and i would be able to graduate and/or get a GED with out redoing all those classes and its not fair. I dont know what to do anymore... So instead of being "alittle nervous" Im shaking in my bones nervous... It seems like I work so hard to have nothing pay off, not just in school either other things as well. Who am I kidding, Im not good for anything... =/ Well Im going to get off here, Ill let you all know how tomorrow goes! Peace everyone.   

Cant get worse

=/ So upset right now nothing seems to be going right =( school is the worset thing ever, I took my necklace back to Jared and this time they wouldnt fix it! I mean really last time they fixed it for free now no they cant.? =/ Almost got in to a wreck or two today =/ cant concentrate on anything. I work so hard and it seems like everything is crashing down. I need some time away from everything but I dont get that. I ask for one thing one time and I cant have it or I have to make all these deals and convince them to let me. Why cant I just have it once.?? I work harder then anything. All I wanna do right now is cry. Nothing seems right, I dont think anything can get any worse. Just gonna suck it up like always =( Goodnight everyone.! 

Back =)

So I headed out around 8:30ish this morning and got rid of my siblings around 1! =) Now Im back at the house and I think its nap time! Probably gonna eat something watch some deadly catch with mom and then MAYBE work on school until I decide to finally pass out and sleep! Haha. It was a nice drive, about 8/9 hours altogether but its EXHAUSTING.!!! So theres still no emails to help with with the new page yet, if I don't get any by the month end of the month then Ill probably delete the page and try something new later. =) I have some pretty great friends though! A friend of mine put in a really good word for me at his job and they called me while I was driving and when I listened to the voicemail they said the manager wants to talk with me and so forth BUT the thing that sucks is I don't live in SC anymore and I think thats where they job offer is BUT it still means a lot to me that a friend cares that much and put in a really good word for me without my knowledge.. hhhmmmm.. we shall see, Ill probably call them back AFTER I talk with my friend =) Well Imma go sooo Peace =)